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Hi [Wednesday] Since Shannon has come to visit and discovered the coffee shop near my house has internet Ive been jacked on coffee. Take the good with the bad, I guess. So I finally feel at home in my apartment, sure its lonely at times but generally Im content and relaxed. I think this 80 degrees in January thing definately affects my whole outlook everyday, I love sitting and reading on my porch smoking and drinking coffee in my boxers. (sorry for the mental picture) I applied to Full Sail for Audio Engineering, I should get in no problem but that stinks Im in Florida for another year then again I guess theres only so much time to live here anyway. I hardly ever drink and besides Shannon and Lupo's stays with me I haven't smoked pot during the day time in over a month, Im much more productive. I like my new outlook on things. I like my new job because I get to bartend. I dont like being in lots of debt but Im slowly pulling myself out. Im excited about school. I want to go to montreal just not when its -15 degrees. I guess at 20 I still dont know how to write a proper journal entry, still just list random thoughts. Im thinking about getting a pit bull puppy. I miss everyone, especially Cuge and Jess. I hope when Shannon and I are done with school well move to Seattle. Im curious about new Panic!. Im addicted to The Office. I wish Kimba was down here. I love my brother, hes pretty awesome. I wish Shannon was still here because of how much fun we had. ..................... thats about it 2 brought me luck + tear me down

[Tuesday] A combination of being out of my safety zone(Brighton) and the fact you find Marlborough's in a $1.50  discount bin at Walgreens in Florida, but I've been smoking alot again. which sucks. And each morning my Father "breaks bread" with me and I feel like Im getting high for the first time again. I feel as if I matured more in the last week than I have in years. It's hard to read my friends page because it makes me want to be in Boston. 2 brought me luck + tear me down

Happy 21 Pollock! [Tuesday] [ music | Malajube ] Florida was incredible. My Dad was incredible. My Brother was incredible. My Sister was incredible. My Grandmother was incredible. Safety Harbor was beautiful. Cassadaga made me uneasy in a good way. "Skydiving" was incredible. Smoking as much as I do at home with my Dad and Brother was pretty rad on top of it all. We smoked above Busch Gardens and down the Wikee Watchee river. I am moving somewhere between Safety Harbor and Tampa Sept. 1st by myself for a year. Im trying to convince people to move with me. But I don't care if I go alone. Im going to miss soo many people, but I can't fucking wait to get out of Boston for a year and focus a little.   Definately a good attempt to make 19 years alright. This is Me with my Father who I haven't seen since I was 6 months old. 2 brought me luck + tear me down

[Monday] I just called my Father and talked to him for the first time in my life. He told me the last time he saw me I was in a baby seat at the end of my Grandmothers driveway, and he was leaving before my mother could call the cops. He said I gave him a "where are you going?" look. wierd. tear me down

[Wednesday] Happy 19th Matthew Shawn Cugini. 1 brought me luck + tear me down

[Monday] Everything is alright for the time being. It's nice. tear me down

[Monday] [ mood | awake ] Post High School life without college could look like it sucks really bad to the average person. But I appreciate every single boring day, hour and minute that I have. I appreciate myself for the first time in my life. I no longer find safety in numbers. Now If I could just make music. 1 brought me luck + tear me down

[Wednesday] [ mood | awake ] Being a waiter is ball busting but rewarding, I figure by January I'll have about 5 grand for my trip to Amsterdam/France. Which is pretty sick. I never wrote about how amazing Maine was, being there with Shannon, Cuge, Joe and Erick  was a mind fuck because I have been going there for like 11 years alone. Also, I don't think anyone is prepared for the Christians and Lions album. After seeing them at Great Scott the other night I even realized I wasn't. tear me down

[Friday] [ mood | drunk ] [ music | Yes, But Slowly ] "As soon as I stood, I found words on my lips but they burned out before christ I'm a novel in flames so take what you can and run till my skin dont glow everything I have is based on fantasy fiction I was born in love with truth there's deceit in my diction I'd change the way that i learned to speak if I could Tell me what you want and I will fashion it of stone if I run out of raw material I will finish it in bone" -Yes, But Slowly tear me down

[Wednesday] Living With Cuge, Joe, Mike, and Darrick my never get old or boring. I like our little setup. I've had premanent chills since I saw "Sexton Under Glass" monday. tear me down

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